::Tuesday, March 13, 2007::
Sometimes people don't understand me. Then again, sometimes they do.
So as a lot of people know, this year has been by far one of the most difficult so far. I was even at a point not that long ago when I was tempted to leave school and not finish the semester. Life has looked up. To be honest, I still lack any type of motivation I once had for school and classes. However, I go out a lot and have found more love in and for my friends than ever before. You know who you are. I love you. In the last three days, I have been to three movies, went on probably about six walks, ate out at Bonanza, wandered two hotels, was treated to milkshakes, hung out with my grandparents, and won best two out of three in Skip-bo. It has been immense.
So back to the topic of my title. Today, I was read. I know I am a fairly open person and a lot of the time, people can figure out what I am thinking, but it was different today. People ten to look at people like me and think that we have it all together. They think that because we always have people around us that we must be alright and cared for by all these people. False. Today, I went over the edge. No, I didn't explode or anything. I didn't even cry openly for a while. However, I was put in a situation and it scared me. My bud, Brady, came up to me after this went down and I asked him how he was and what he wanted to do. He just saw into me and said that he wanted to go a walk. What a life saver. We walked far into the country. It is so nice out. Unfortunately for him, I waited until we were about two miles out of town before I started crying. I sat in a hug and cried for a few minutes. Then we turned around and walked back. It was just what I needed. A few words of wisdom and a hug. Anyone who knows me knows that hugs always work. However, only those who really know me will hug me when I'm in that particular state of mind. It was kind of an ironic evening, as I am usually the one who claims I can read Brady like a book. Like I said earlier, today I was read - and understood.
The end. Currently, after a evening of crying and comfort, life is grand.
:: 8:36 PM::
::Hailey Jeanne::
girl| OXOXOXOXOXOX | femme | loves | piano | guitar | long romantic walks on the beach |
writing| singing | pineapple | the color orange | white chocolate | family | my roomie | laughing out loud | blowing bubbles | smiling | Softsoap Milk & Honey body wash | making up my own words |
