only 160 school days left until i graduate!!! people say that a countdown makes it seem further away, but not so much for me. it puts things into perspective and the fact that im almost out. everyone beware cuz im about to use a ridiculous cliche. i want to make this year my best! ouch...that was almost painfully cliche-ish. o well. i can deal. i already consider things of grade twelve as 'winding down'. i suppose i shouldnt as it technically is far from winding down, but there is much to look forward to. im going on a retreat this weekend with a large group of people i love. there a numerous other retreats and im soon starting curves (woohoo!!!) with my mom, so thatll be fun. im also starting a new youth group in saskatoon and its amazing. i guess you could say its my church for week since im bad at getting things out of a sunday service. it seems like everything is good is you look hard enough. this is how we should always view things, but it just seems easier now. i can drive now, and i feel older already. im still not allowed to date yet, but its in my near future and im allowed to drive out and see my amazing justin sometimes. this just makes me feel responsible and happy. as we speak, im in the library hanging out with byron, a guy in my class who makes me leaugh every single time he opens his mouth, so im happy. yeah, thats really all i have to say. i hope everyone has a good weekend.
(3) comments :: 9:10 AM::
k, so yesterday was bittersweet. i got to skip the entire day so that was really good. unfortunately, i had a dentist appointment, where a nurse who was new on suty proceeded to rip out my gums in a heinously unpleasant way, the entire time saying "wow hailey, your gums bleed easily". well duh they will when you jam your poker thing into them and rip it out unceremoniously. anyways, so that was over and i walked out with weird dentist suff all over my face. it was attractive but i doubt i had to even put that as im sure you can all picture it anyways. so then mom and i went out for lunch to wendys where i ate amazing chicken strips dipped in ranch dressing. this is as phenominal creation, as the two foods were simply meant to be together. anyways, after that we drove to a bridal store to see of my dream grad dress was on sale now that new things have come in for the new school year. i tried it on and fell in love with it all over again. as i was changing out of it, however, i heard mom ask if it would go on sale and the woman assured us it never would, or at least not until the line stopped producing that dress. so yeah, that dress is out of the question. so then i went to a chiropractic appointment with dr mike, where he had all the nerve in the world and pulled my toes til they cracked. i was rather unhappy, but as things panned out, i ended up getting a brand new pair of shoes. theyre pink and brown and beige vans and i absolutely love them. i guess pros and cons were equal yesterday so yeah. thats my schpiel. the end.
(2) comments :: 12:49 PM::
yesterday Jesus, justin, and relient k hit me all within the same small time span. what i learned from justin is that even when things suck, i cant always fix them. i can try but itll be fruitless until i rely on God, and then its up to Him, not me. i hate this lesson because i feel useless when i cant fix something. anyways, then i was listening to relient k to the more than useless came on. some of the lyrics read "I feel like, I would like To be somewhere else doing something that matters And I'll admit here, while I sit here My mind wastes away and my doubts start to gather Whats the purpose? It feels worthless So unwanted like I've lost all my value I can't find it, not in the least bit and I'm just scared, so scared that I'll fail you And sometimes I think that I'm not any good at all And sometimes I wonder why, why I'm even here at all But then you assure me I'm a little more than useless". it kinda slapped me in the face i guess. then in the evening i went to a conference type thing in the city hosted by fresh fire ministries. its amazing and theres sessions all week for free so if anyone is interested give me a call and ill fill you in on details. anyways, there was a pause in the music and everyone cried out to God in their own way. i said to God that he could have all of me, which i sometimes feel isnt very much. He clearly said to me that that was just what he wanted. its like...Hes so huge and im so insignificant compared to Him, but He chose me, as in its His choice, as in He doesnt need me at all, but He wants me. whew...yesterday was a loaded day, but it was good i guess.
(0) comments :: 9:03 AM::
i dont have too much to say i guess. i feel weird knowing that i didnt blog all weekend, so here i am. i hung out in waldheim on saturday. although i am biased about dalmeny, i loved the day in waldheim. its about the same size as dalmeny but there are way more trees and since fall is already blessing us with its presence, the sidewalks were covered with leaves. i was walking around town when it started to rain and just like that there was a little picnic table thing under a shelter. maybe i was just in good company and thats why it was fun, but i like to think that waldheim is an alright town. maybe im biased towards that town too. (teeheehee)
(3) comments :: 12:49 PM::
hey everyone. k, this is an essay that we got to read in english and i thought it was funny. it might be boring for you, but at least read part of it k? k, here it goes.
(2) comments :: 10:01 AM::
hey everyone. im on a bit of a blogging boost since i have great spares that need filling. i suppose im the kind of girl who likes to look ahead, so ive been researching schools already for next year. although the world and everyone else expects me to go to Bethany College, im not so sure as of yet. i know its out of stubbornness and pride, but the main reason im questionning bethany is because its expected of me. thats jumbled eh? dont get me wrong. i know bethany is a great school but i have trouble doing what people expect of me and not wanting me to do whats in my heart. also, i ve finally figured out what i want to do as a career. ill become a rehabilitation worker. thats a person who helps people who were born with or have aquired a mental or physical ailment reach their full potential. its a one year course at SIAST and the only qualification for me getting in is that i have my grade twelve diploma which im certainly planning on getting. on this, im lost. i want to go to bible college and get a boost on my knowledge of my Jesus, but im bursting about this oppertunity to get a handle on my actual career plan and fast. there is encouragement from my amazing brother and sister to do as God leads me, and thats what I plan on doing. im just antsy and want to get started applying at places. you may be thinking that i still have tons of time, but i want to look ahead so i actually know where i stand and so i can be at peace, ready, and excited, not uber-stressed. thanx for listening. much love to you all.
(1) comments :: 9:58 AM::
k, i hope everyone enjoyed there summer. sorry ive rarely written during summer but ive been busy. i spent alot of time at camp and did a lot of catching up with people. i officially turned 17 on the 30th and spent the day hanging out with justin, so i guess i couldntve asked for a better birthday. then i proceeded to spend three weeks at camp and get kicked out the day of the staff party/summer wind up. yeah, long story, but you did read it right. i definitely got kicked out of bible camp. dissapointed? me too. all in all though it was a great summer and i can celebrate the fact that i only have 196 more school days til im officially out of high school and graduated! woohoo! anyways, im on spare so im going home. i love you all!
(0) comments :: 1:00 PM::