::Monday, October 31, 2005::
i had quite the adventure this weekend.
i was driving along highway 12 headed to go see justin. there was this ridiculous driver behind me tailing me with his brights on. he was distracting but its happened before. i was lloking at him thru my mirror willing his to buzz off, when i saw a deer on the road way up ahead. im panic, i slammed on the brakes. i suppose the guy tailing me saw the deer before i did becuz by some miracle he didnt hit me. as i tried to stop, this suicidal deer ran out from the ditch and slammed into my car, throwing my car towards the left lane. i swerved towards the shoulder back on the right. the guy driving behind me just drove right on down the highway. i sat in my car stunned, until i finally exploded, abolutely screaming and terrified. i turned on my hazards and waited for someone to pull over. i could have kept driving as the car was still in alright condition, but i was in instense shock and ive never experienced such a feeling to that degree. i walked out to look at the damage. at the time it seemed that some damage had been done to the left headlight but it still shines. later, i would find out that the passenger door was dented in and doesnt open anymore. so finally this woman and her small son pulled over to my rescue. she lent me a cell and looked my car over. i just cried and called mom. she asked me to come home cuz i wasnt in god shape. i drove home on the gravel for whatever reason, going about 60km/hr max. i cried and cried when i got home, but the worst part was calling justin and telling him i couldnt come out. i felt terribel but hes amazing and understanding and made me laugh, so i felt better. its nice to have someone who can deal with you when you cry over the phone. anyways, my legs have been shaky pretty much all weekend, even with ibuprofen in my diet, but its alright. so yeah, thats the exciting story of the weekend. later days
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:: 9:10 AM::
::Wednesday, October 26, 2005::
this weekend i went to some baptisms in osler. my camp buds, byron and brandon, were baptized. after the service we went, along with lots of camp people and some of their other friends, to brandons house for lunch. we watched a ridiculous movie made by byron, darren, and collin. it was funny. jerilee and i stayed until arounf 5:30 just hanging out with bryon, brandon, and collin. i fiddled with collins camera for a long time and took a 21 picture photo shoot of my rubber horse, pokey. basically, if you know me, you know pokey. then collin, jerilee and i went out for slurpees in warman. actually, we had iced cap type things. mine was french vanilla and very yummy. then i was lost so collin took us to the twelve and we got home from there. it was a fun day, even though i got heck about being late when i got home. it was still super fun, and the heck was valid and understandable. so yeah, thats the end. it was a super fun day and we even had collin saying "fun game" by the end of the day.(sorry for those of you who werent at rlbc and dont understand "fun game".) much love everyone.
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:: 12:56 PM::
::Thursday, October 20, 2005::
i dont know where to start. i guess over the years ive learned to take care of myself in a way. im a semi-tough kid and if im bummed, i can get over it in my own way, although its usually an unhealthy way that results in bottle up anger that i am lectured on regularly. i know im loved by some, and thats awesome and i love you too. surprisingly i have bundles of love inside of me and i like to think that it radiates at times. i genuinely dont know how this all came up and it may seem random to some, but i suck at receiving love. its baffling to me why someone would choose to love me. its a strange thing. i guess ive began to depend on myself instead of God sometimes, and in some ways, ive stopped trusting people. compliments are lies. i remember a time when i played guitar at youth. it was a long time ago and i wasnt very good. i knew it. in a logical sense, as in i couldnt hit the chords right. everyone told me i did well, not because i did well, but because they wanted to comment and fill the silence. in situations like this, i have learned that there are ways to comment without lying or butchering someones heart. maybe this is over everyones head, but its my blog and i can ramble to the extent of my choice. anyways, because of my stubborn ways, i find it impossible to accept chivalry, affection, comliments, and love. ive gotten a vibe from some people that this is a bad thing, but ive always said before that it shouldnt affect them and i can say whatever i want. i think back to this one time when i sang a song at church and mom told justin how amazing it was. i was so embarrassed and automatically corrected her by saying that i was off key the entire song. i said she had to think that cuz shes my mom. the phrase "you have to say that" is the phrase that makes justin want to bite my head off. i never realized that putting myself down affected so many other people around me. i guess its a blunt way of saying that their words dont have value in my heart. i never realized that some things i say are lies. im not one to think highly of myself, but ive told people that the grad dress i bought doesnt look that good on me. im not saying it does, but its not super bad at least. i dunno. i guess im having a bit of a revelation and i need to rant it out. no, i dont feel worthy of love and affection. why did justin choose to be my boyfriend? i have no clue. its baffling cuz he could do way better, seriously. but when he says hes happy to be with me i should believe him. its not like some conspiracy against hailey thing, its for real. im new at this stuff. anyways, no, this blog is not fishing for compliments. its simply a rant to belt out some inner demons ive had for awhile. i love you all ina big way!
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:: 10:05 AM::
::Monday, October 17, 2005::
IM A YELLOW TEN!!!!!
anyone who was in my small group a year or two ago should know what im talking about. if i were a color, id be yellow and if i was on a scale of one to ten, im a ten! my yellow ten-ness began on thursday. i skipped school and went shopping with my mom. in the end, i came out of saskatoon with my grad dress! its gorgeous and baby pink, believe it or not. it also doesnt need any alterations, and (*apologizes to anyone of the male persuasion*) i dont need to wear a bra with it. im pumped. then friday was great too. justin came out becuz his sister had a volleyball tournament. when he and i went to my house to get money for supper, my mom came up to us and finally gave us permission to officially date! woohoo for finally having justin as my boyfriend and i can finally be his girlfriend. we went out for supper and then he had to leave to go back home. thank goodness he came out again on saturday for the rest of the tournament. i just love to be around him, so the day was great. waldheim won the tournament by the way, with dalmeny as a close second. after justin left, steph called, so i went to her place and watched a movie with a few people. i got to see a friend from camp whom i havent seen for a long time, so that was bonus. also, he just recently started dating a girl, so we were both excited together and we were full of cute stories and sappy moments. it was fun to talk to him and finally watch "the longest yard". the next day was sunday. it started out slightly rotten but me and my mom went to saskatoon for lunch to montanas and then went shopping for a bit. i got a new cord to replace the string that broke on the cross necklace justin gave me. i also got a journal, another rubber bracelet, a mocha booster juice, and finally i got lip gloss. mom and i got back in the evening but i was too full to eat supper. jerilee called me around 6:45 and said that twelve camp people were going bowling and i was invited. we had a super fun time, since pretty much all of us cant bowl. we had three games, and we played the third game using a weird suggestion sheet for each turn. man, i suck at bowling. i think my score that round was like 64 or something. it was good times. im definitely a yellow ten.
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:: 11:27 AM::
::Friday, October 14, 2005::
k, so here is absolutely the worst thing ive ever read. i was looking back to old emails and i found this terrible forward. my comments are in orange. here is a list of way that a guy can apparently tell if a girl is flirting with him:
- She makes eye contact and smiles at you.
- She hits you softly on the arm and laughs when you say something funny.(you should never laugh when someone says something funny)
- She flips her hair when she's talking to you.
- She touches your arm when she talks to you.
- She says, "No, I'm not telling you who I like!" with a big smile on her face(smiling is banned when you like someone, so dont give it away!)
- She asks you who you like or who you would go out with seemingly interested.(well if shes interested shed probably seem that way)
- When you go to the movies with a bunch of your friends and she is almost always next to you.(oo-la-la)
- She criticizes you on a girl you like.
- You catch her staring at you.
- She plays with your hair or tries to put make up on you. (thats apparently classified as flirtatious, not creepy)
- Her friends outside of school and in school know about you, and says she talks about you a lot.
- She knows your phone number and address.(weird)
- She will try and talk, and spend time with you as much as possible. (if there is a possibility of a relationship, its weird to spend time together, right?)
so this is pathetic correct? this is now how girls can know if guys are flirting with them:
- He stares at you a lot.
- He hits you a lot. (just play hitting) (i disagree)
- He uses the first thing that pops into his head to start a conversation with you.
- He yelled, "Hi!", to your mom that day she picked you up from school. (that is soooo flirtatious!)
- He blew off his buds to go see "Run Away Bride" with you cuz you couldn't get another girl pal to go and didn't want to go alone. (thats a good friend, not necessarily someone who is interested)
- He tries to make you laugh anyway even if he gets hurt in the process.
- His voice gets softer ("Hey, you") when ever you two talk. (hahaha...this is just ridiculous)
- You hung up on him. He called you back.
- You where invited by him to a group outing. (if that means a guy is interested, im screwed, as are most of us girls from dalmeny)
- He called you to talk about nothing at all. (thats flirtatious? man, the things im learning)
- He imitates your laugh. OK, you do snort sometimes. Which makes you laugh even harder. (thats not flirtatious, ITS MEAN JUSTIN!!!)
- He remembers little things you mention in casual conversation.
- He sometimes stares straight into your eyes. (the difference between this one and the first one on this list?)
yeah, so there you go. a foolproof guide to read the flirtations of the opposite sex.
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:: 9:14 AM::
::Friday, October 07, 2005::
1. IF YOU COULD BUILD A HOUSE >ANYWHERE WHERE WOULD IT BE?>>on a beach somewhere hot, but if itold you exactly where, id have to kill you
2. WHAT'S YOUR FAVOURITE ARTICLE OF CLOTHING?>>>besides my gotch (i love my underwear) probably my pink tank top
3. FAVOURITE PHYSICAL FEATURE OF THE OPPOSITE SEX? >>i have a weakness for eyes and hair
4. THE LAST CD THAT YOU BOUGHT? relient k: mmhmm
5. WHERE'S YOUR FAVOURITE PLACE TO BE?>>anywhere, but away somewhere with people i love
6. WHERE'S YOUR LEAST FAVOURITE PLACE TO BE? school
7. WHAT'S YOUR FAVOURITE PLACE TO BE MASSAGED? shoulders and back are always fun, but face and hand tickles are good too
8. WHAT'S MOST IMPORTANT, STRONG IN MIND OR STRONG IN BODY? mind.>>
9. WHAT TIME DO YOU WAKE IN THE MORNING?>>around 730, but without my alarm, around 930>
10. WHAT'S YOUR FAVOURITE KITCHEN APPLIANCE? either a blender or microwave!>>
11. WHAT MAKES YOU REALLY ANGRY? competition and jessica simpson (that rhymes)
12. IF YOU COULD PLAY ANY INSTRUMENT, WHAT WOULD IT BE? a basoon
13. FAVOURITE COLOUR? orange>>
14. WHICH DO YOU PREFER, SPORTS CAR OR SUV? sports car>
15. DO YOU BELIEVE IN THE AFTERLIFE?>>in heaven yeah>
16. FAVOURITE CHILDREN'S BOOK ?>>ill love you forever>
17. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE SEASON? summer cuz it brings camp>
18. IF YOU COULD HAVE ONE SUPER POWER, WHAT WOULD IT BE?>>id like to be like violet on the incredibles cuz then i could disappear from existance when i cry
19. IF YOU HAVE A TATTOO, WHAT IS IT? not so much >>
20. CAN YOU JUGGLE? no, and i idolize ppl who can>>
21. THE ONE PERSON FROM YOUR PAST YOU WISH YOU COULD GO BACK AND TALK TO? >jamin chepernich>>
22. WHAT'S YOUR FAVOURITE DAY?>>anyones birthday>
23. WHAT'S IN THE TRUNK OF YOUR CAR? i dont have a car>>
24. WHICH DO YOU PREFER, SUSHI OR HAMBURGER?>>i dont really like either
25. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE CARTOON CHARACTER? i love the naked mole rat in kim possible!>
26. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE MEAL? maybe im just mennonite, but i love >potatoe and cheddar perogies!
so i was on spare and felt like writing something. this is an old school survey that i did way back when and i thought it was funny and randomish. hope you enjoy.
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:: 9:02 AM::
::Wednesday, October 05, 2005::
You know you've found a good guy when...
- he offers you a piece of gum and doesnt get mad when you take the window piece
- he carries the groceries home from the store
- he examines your very hairy legs and midly comments "I didnt even notice"
- he lets you beat him up and sometimes even pretends it hurts
- he will sacrifice his pride just to make you laugh
- he'll follow every rule your nazi anti-dating parents dish out
- he hits it off with your parents
- he will turn down an offer to hang out with his friends to talk to you on the phone for "just five more minutes"
- he'll call you first thing in the morning-as in he's still in bed-to apologize for something stupid he said the day before that wasnt even stupid. basically, he makes excuses to call you
- he lets you touch his facial hair on a regular basis
- he could do better but he still picks you
...teeheehee.
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:: 11:35 AM::
::Hailey Jeanne::
girl| OXOXOXOXOXOX | femme | loves | piano | guitar | long romantic walks on the beach |
writing| singing | pineapple | the color orange | white chocolate | family | my roomie | laughing out loud | blowing bubbles | smiling | Softsoap Milk & Honey body wash | making up my own words |
